As Christmas approaches and as it’s finally here, the thought that over-rides the mind of many for this special day of the year are gifts, gifts, gifts and the expectation are there from loved ones and friends in receiving a gift. Call me abnormal, but I have always viewed Christmas day as a moment in life where more weight and focus should be on spending time with that special someone, family, friends and be appreciative for the simple things in life.
I am a true believer in that one should not compare themselves to another person in making themselves feel good about their placement in life, but on Christmas day, I feel its a moment in time where we should take the time to compare ourselves to those who are less-fortunate in that such situations should allow us to be more appreciative, humble, and looking to help others with more emphasis on spending time with family, friends, and loved ones, instead of thinking of what materialistic things to get those special ones in our lives.
As I mentioned earlier, even though I may cave to the gift giving of the Christmas season, my focus has always been on cherishing that time with those trusting people in my life. After seven years of being in a relationship with the woman who expressed love to me on a constant basic, having met her mother, father, sisters, grandparents, the extended family, attending her family re-unions, weddings, Thanksgiving and feeling that she was the woman of my life, I found out that not only was I being lied to by this female on things which I thought we came to an understanding about(not keeping things from each other), but also that she was sexually involved with another guy all while professing her love to me and pressuring me to marry her. Typically, finding out such actions of infidelity by a spouse comes about by a friend providing information, but for me, it was all in the heart, for seven years in being involved with this female, my mind told me that I loved her but my heart told me she could not be trusted, without no concrete evidence this is the feeling I got, and the continued battle of disagreement with my heart and mind continued over the years conflicting with the other over marriage proposal and the thought of marriage-hood.
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